Tired Of Everything

I was literally tired today not just because the overloading tasks at work and the stress it gives to me but also about other things in life. I get exhausted with my emotions and end up not knowing what I should be feeling. Mentally, I don't want to think of all the problems I'm facing but it ends up to overthinking.

Yesterday, I was alone at the office and most of my workmates already went home. I browsed my Facebook and I found this article worth reading in Open Letters That Matter's page with the caption "Read This When You're Tired of Everything". It was a long letter and the writer really caught up what I am experiencing right now. It was a hope booster for me and I was encouraged to understand what life might be teaching me. I must commend the original author of this which is Ms. Heidi Priebe. She is a staff writer at Thought Catalog. You are not just beautiful, but an extraordinary woman that can touch the hearts of your readers. Thank you. 

Here's the letter:

I know what it’s like to feel tired – and not just in the physical sense.

The world that we live in is an exhausting place to be. It is wearing. It is thankless. It is endlessly trying and scarcely rewarding. You’re tired simply because you live in it. You’re tired of loving too much, caring too much, giving too much to a world that never gives anything back. You are tired of investing in indefinite outcomes. You’re tired of uncertainties. Tired of grey.

Home Credit Reviews

I am one of the thousands of people working at home in an outsourcing company and it is very vital to us to have a good conditioned laptop and a fast speed internet at home. These things are our tools to survive for a living. This is the reason why I write this post to appreciate Home Credit Philippines in financing my Acer laptop purchase even without a credit card. Here's the story.

This Wednesday while working, my Acer laptop shutdown by itself and can't be rebooted anymore. I tried everything I know to make it work, but it seems that my efforts were not working. 

In that case, I decided to send it to the computer technician and wait for its repair. Unfortunately, it takes 3-5 days and it will cost me a lot to repair my computer. That's the time I need to think how I will fasten the process to get back to work. I check my laptop if it is still worthy to be repaired of and just realized that it was almost 3 years and already depreciated. I'm thinking of buying a new one in replacement of my old laptop. I went to check my savings bank account and sadly, I only got Php 7,000 on my ATM. How will I buy a new laptop then? I didn't have credit cards also which needs to present to purchase of something in credit. Well at the first place, I didn't want to have such card for it only feeds my impulsive buying behavior. Under those circumstances, I went home upset, thinking how I will get a new laptop.

Life Goals: Ask God About It

If you were enlightened on my previous post about Quarter life crisis and how you should face it, you'll be surely needing to read this post I wrote as an application to what you've been aware of.

Given these points, let's sit down and start writing our life goals before it was too late. I started to make my own and I came down to these ten life goals I have.

1. Get married before 30.

2. Retire with Php. 10 Million.

3. Become an entrepreneur.

4. Fall in love with someone beautiful.

5. Make my parents proud of how much I earn.

6. Build my own home.

7. Make many friends.

8. Travel the world with that special person.

9. Find happiness in the luxury.

10. Find someone whom you can live with.

Quarter Life Crisis: The Monster Inside Your Head

If you are somewhere in the mid-twenties to thirties and you feel like you're out of purposed, hopeless, regretful and lost. And if you're anything like me who feels deceived by your own choices in life or misguided by your previous actions, felt restless, burdened and pressured. You are not alone. Everyone experience this kind of monster you are fighting from within. When one of my friends posted on facebook this kind of stage of her life, I got an idea on what I am experiencing now. And even after knowing what I should be doing, some day in my life, I still feel the same way.

Some called it the monster in our heads that question as if I am pursuing the right career. If, I didn't resigned or terminated at my previous work? If I myself decided to really choose my previous career and be a master in that industry. What will happen in my life? Those are the questions and what ifs that keeps wandering in my head. 

Humanity keeps on searching for something they didn't know what they’re searching for. Personally, I tried studying a technical course for two years with the help of my parents, then I worked in a marketing industry then shifted to the IT industry. I tried the office based and home based jobs. I even got the chance to work in the government and the field work. I studied for the second time around while working and graduated with an Accounting course which I didn't really wanted. And now, I'm working in the Human Resource department. Looking back to the things I've done in my life. I asked myself, what do I really like?